there's nothing more depressing and disappointing when you've realise that all that you've worked for, is all about to into the drain.
while on the way, we made our fair share of mistakes and apologise were accepted.
but were they really accepted?
if they were accepted then i guess moving pass that phase would be so much easier.
but i guess, such mistakes can be forgiven, but never forgotten.
stupid stupid stupid
i give a bad name to stupid itself.
never learn from your mistakes, do you?
smartass...
what makes you think this will be different from the last?
i guess, its the promise of a better future that you agreed to..
and now, im blabbering about how stupid i was to even agree to the deal.
i should have weighed the risk properly.
but now, i guess its too late.
too late for everything.
the chance of success is only limited to about 0.5%..
and yet, i hope things will turn for the better.
0.5%? you must be an idiot azhar..
but hey, nothing new to be an idiot..=D
a friend of mine told me once to have some ego and pride, the two things that i find not needed in anyone for any reason.
but when i believe in these two points, i realise things went astray.
for this reason, i shan't not any further heed any other advices rather than my own.
gees. im so angry to a point that i feel like crying..
maybe it's time for me to seek for divine intervention...
i welcome you to mount kinabalu.
ok, im done...
god bless...