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Tuesday, October 23, 2007

motherfuckers.
i think its time for me to finally blow things up in proportion
i hate fucking noises
i hate being surrounded by ppl
i wanna be left alone after schoooooooooooooooool
i wan some time for my fucking ownnnnnnnn
is tt so hard to ask????
semua, azhar buat ni, azhar buat tu..
cmon..
im still a TEEN
let me fucking enjoy my fucking self before having any responsibility...

_ _I_ _

a middle finger look alike to those who annoy the fuck out of me...

now fuck off motherfucker
and leave me aloneeeeeeeeeeeeeee........

ok, im done..
god bless..

ASS-har :: 9:45 PM

Sunday, October 21, 2007

you guys knw what?
i think the most greatest companions u can ever haf is music
why?
cuz when u listen to it, whatever genre it is, its able to release ur anger/stress or whatsoever shitty feeling u got
music doesnt disappoint you
it stays loyal to u till u die

and if ur in a band, the better
whatever instruments you play, let it be a keyboardist or e vocals, when u do ur thing when during ur jamming session or performance, u'd be able to pour out ur feelings...
for now, i really nid a session for myself..

squel like a motherfucking pig
scream like a motherfucking bitch
punch myself/wall/head/air like a motherfucking lunatic

i'd do whatever it is to just "let go" of myself..
after a solid 2 hours, i'd be fine..
how weird is tt?

retarded? i knw..
but who cares?
mofo

fags frm ERIS, bila mau jam sial?
kepala buto...

she hates ppl who curse..
dammit...i need to cut down on it..
ergh

ok, im done...
god bless..

ASS-har :: 9:16 PM

Friday, October 19, 2007

i make u feel like crap
why?
and you think by us separating ways would resolve it?
when face upon another problem, you're gonna run away too?
dun do this to me
im begging you
you've made me smile to myself
you've made me feel so happy to the point of beyond words
we enjoy each other's company
so why end it?
why?
why?
why?

i wish i can hate you
but i cant
i dun haf the heart to..

ok, im done.
god bless..

ASS-har :: 12:10 AM

Thursday, October 18, 2007

everything was well
everything was fine
hearing ur voice
made me smile

your laughter is rare
i could hardly bare
to resist myself
to laugh as well

whats goin on??
im left in e dark
what did i do to make you hate me so much???
the phonecall ended wit both with a smile

did i offend u in any way?
im sorry
did i tease you badly?
im sorry
am i not to your standard?
im sorry

please i beg of you, dun hate me

gonna go jamming later
once im back, i'd be voiceless..

ok, im done..
god bless..

ASS-har :: 1:52 PM

Wednesday, October 17, 2007

how long more can i stand this?
im not sure
why am i doing this?
dont know
feel like giving up?
yes
is it worth while to give up?
no/yes....im not sureeee..
what do you plan to do?
i dont know...im in a dilemma..

fuck...
back to schoooooool...
same old shit again...
hafta face the same shit again
fuck tits yaw..
tmr jamming session wit e fags frm eris..
thank god..
i wun haf any more voice after tmr i guess..

ok, im done...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 11:50 PM

Monday, October 15, 2007

its not fair
im the victim of something tt has got nth to do with me
you seem to be holding back
i hope by holding back, ur doin e right thing
i hope it works for you cuz its not working for me
but too bad
i cant do anything abt it
hope it turns out well

anw, the season doesnt mean anything to me anymore
its just like another day in ur dull life but e only difference is tt ppl come over to ur place to visit
im too tired to be bothered abt anything

im in my low point..
im in my fucking fucked up point where my medicine is goin to e studio n scream my lungs out till my voice turn sore
i shall fuck e stage up on e 24th nov gig, perform without any shirt on...
and fuck it up
i nid to fuck things up a notch these fucking days

ok, im done...
god bless..

ASS-har :: 9:18 PM

i feel the festive season has worn out its meaning with each yr passing
its e same old shit again, over and over again each yr
the bazaar tt is held every yr
i think its a bigger size of a normal pasar malam tt u get every few mths under ur void deck
frm there, all kinds off ppl u can see

i am taught tt girls should nvr wear tight fitting clothes tt show off their figure
but u haf girls wearing e traditional malay dresses of kebaya so fucking tight, tt sometimes, i think their boobs are gonna fall off or their ass-es are squeeze together under a fucking tight skirt

then e males, u haf golden monkeys wearing songkok..
wtf is tt all abt?
with long side burns...
n it seems to me tt its a trend to wear a huge 70s style shades...

the purpose of e season is totally corrupted..

seriously, its just sad.......

ok u motherfuckers..

u haf a good hari raya now..
n be good...

tmr sch..
knnccb

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 1:15 AM

Tuesday, October 09, 2007

after watching those vids, 85% chances i'll turn into a vegan...

ok...end of random post..

ok, im done
god bless...

ASS-har :: 2:36 AM

Sunday, October 07, 2007

ok
its 2.36am in e mrng of sunday
im listening to cardiac necropsy now..
n oh my fucking god..
they're awesomely-tremendously WOW..
how e fuck are we to play wif em on e 29th??
i knw there's a difference in genre wise...cuz seriously, they're way brutal than we will ever be...
(sorry guys, its e truth!)
haha..
but cmon..with the talents they haf..
we're no match for such calibre..
hats off to them i tell yeaaa..
n im gonna be so fucking honored to be performing on the same stage as them...

oh oh..
im kinda anxious to be thereee..
we're amateurs to them...
AHHHH...
confident la bodoh!!
ahahha

ok..end of random post..

ok, im done..
god bless...

ASS-har :: 2:33 AM

Monday, October 01, 2007

"beauty is in the eye of the beholder"

honestly, i dunno what it meansssss...
but whatever it is, i doubt it means something tt is gud, i think?
lol

beauty is always abt the looks...n nvr the other way round..
i admit, its hard to look at the other beauty tt he or she possesses
but in theory, tts impt..
but practically, tts of a secondary importance..

i've tried looking for someone who possesses both qualities
i mean, cmon, im a human..
im greedy..
i want both..
but then i realise, as mths past, there's no such person tt has both qualities
u gotta give n take..
its either u get e hot babe, or just an ordinary girl..

its simply hard to look only at one factor..
for now, im gonna rethink my strategies..
goddammit...
lol

okay...
in other news...
im bored...
im a justice league fanatic..
childish?
i know...shut up...

n Happy Children's Day to all kids including myself...

ok, im done here
god bless...

ASS-har :: 10:00 PM