woke up on e wrong side of the bed...
haha...BUT!!!
omfg!
they were awesome!!!
Behind Enemy Lines rock laaa...but then they changed their names like twice so i dunno wats their band name now...
but all i noe is tat ath, faez, OG, sheeka, ammar and shaz rock e hell out of e gig juz now!
faez n ath! ko tipu aku! ckp seram!
but when on stage! kiwaaaaak....u gals haf e attention of e crowd! ape ilmu korg pakai?? ajar akuuuuu...Autumn By Mistake oso did quite well for their set....their set was juz before BEL's set...so, lucky me..
haha...so ANW, after tat, there was this punk band who played rancid and some other bands tat they cover...at 1st, small moshing...THEN, everyone got into e moshing pit...
n for the 1st time, even both the ang mo's took part in e action...they used some snow spray of some kind n sprayed all over e poor guy who works as part time at as soundman(i think part time la)...
then frm there, the rage was out! everyone moshed like hell!!!
i think i almost got kicked at groin but i didnt notice...then, kena punch on e nose...
teros terkluar moshing pit..nasib tak darah...haha...all this happen wif e punk band stil on stage...fav song wud b Fuck Police Brutality, i think tats e song name la...
haha...hot sak tat song...everyone moved n moshed n do things i dun even noe exist!!!
well, overall, i think e punk band played like 7 to 8 songs rather than 5 songs...
tat wan oso roy asked for more n more songs personally to the ang mo..
i think e ang mo's there were "closing one eye" since today's e last day for 2006..
haha...
ohwell...after that, frens of BEL; including aizad n some of e others who eventhou i noe, i dun even noe their name followed BEL n Autumn By Mistake gonna go thon somewhere n countdown i think...but since im a mummy's child(HAHA!!! but its trueee...) after tat, i went home lorrr...rasul however stayed to support his fren's band's set...
well, i think tats it...
ended e yr in a high note i guess...
ESPECIALLY BEL...awesome performance again guys...
ok, im done...
god bless...
p.s. u motherfuckers...happy new yr...
well, its e eve of new yrs...
n my nite is getting frm bad to worse...
i cant seem to get anything right...
for those i love, would just say gud bye...
their heart is pure...
for that, i know...
my conscience just dont feel right when its never meant to be...
it annoys me at how long i hafta wait for something good to happen...
is this a challenge frm fate?
or is this just fate's way of saying, "no way in hell..."
if hell is where i must go to reach for my needs,
then hell i shall be to get what i need...
i dont fuck around when it comes to love...
people might say i'm forever emo-ing...
but i bet my life they do not know what im emo-ing for...
bottled in a glass for i dun wish to scare...
those i love, with the problems i have...
im just trying to live by the day one day at a time...
in a dream few days back, i realise...
i dun deal with goodbyes very well...
i literally felt my heart sank...
be it a farewell frm the airport, or even a farewell at my loed ones graves...
im scared..
its not everyday when u hear me saying this...
but in actual fact, im as puny and pathetic as you are...
im not ready to say goodbyes...
im not ready to die...
i still wan to do alot of things wif those i care for and love so much...
but frm this, i realise, at least i haf someone to love n care for...
unlike my fellow human beings in war torn countries...
dying for something they're not even part of in the 1st place...
children dying...
mothers crying...
fathers and sons fighting for a maniac tyrant who wants power...
dont get me wrong...i salute the defenders of peace...
but i spit at tyrants and dictators who thinks they own the whole of this fucked up world...
killing, torturing and disgracing at their own will...
to them fuck u...
dont they haf any conscience?
whatever it maybe...
i am sad that these days, sons and daughters haf lost their responsibility to their parents...
i admit, i am one of those fucked up morons...
i might not say it to them...
but ayah, mak, nenek...
az minta maaf...
saying it here cuz i dun haf enuf guts to tell them face to face...
for readers of this blog...
think...of how ur loved ones haf sacrificed for u n how fucking lucky u are...
i realised it this yr...
when will it be ur turn?
question that, and now u can say u haf a heart...
ok, im done...
god bless...
Monday, December 25, 2006
juz got the bad news...
guess what?
ilah's gonna migrate..
this is sooo fucking annoying...
but then again, i bet she's even more sad abt this..
so ok, i wun say more abt it...
the 1st time i saw her...
didnt think much abt it...was shazni's gig wif paradox i think..
2nd time was on 3rd dec's gig...
got to know her then we started to chat and all ah...
fuck it...
honestly, she'd b missed by me...
well, leaving mid of nxt yr..
so im juz hoping to get to know her asap i guess....
this is fucked up...
in any case, cant wait for wed to finally jam wif eris...
im soooo gonna explode wif anger on wed in e studio...
ok im done...
fucking out...
god bless..
let me seee...
good: 1) i went out wif her today since her bf was ill...(scandalous, i know)
2) mannan's gig was awesome...(knn! not bad for 1st show sial!)
3) i made new frens today
bad: 1) she's fucking attached!!!
2) i reli nid to control my emotions...FUCK!!!
well...other than tat, im SO GONNA FUCKING JAM ON WEDNESDAY!!!
YEAY!!! rasul got off frm werk on wed, fri n sunday...
so e whole of ERIS wud b there to support BEL...well, except for tt gay ryan..he's stil in mlysia sak...ergh!
ERIS da la tak complete...kite semua da la gian mau jam....knn...
EEE!!! takle sabar sak mau main Love Lost in a Hail of Gunfire dgn Hammer smash Face..
YEAY!!!
tu pon klu diorg mau main ah..
hahaa...okok...skejap je..
mendak ah...
ok, im done here...
god bless...
p.s. i miss my annoying lil sis n niece..ergh!!!
Sunday, December 24, 2006
im bored..
gonna update la while waiting for my mp3 to recharge..
damn..i nid to get a new mp3 ASAP..
anw, bought this reli cool cd ah..
nooo, its not a MOVIE kinda cd...
the band name is CHthonic...n i haf no idea how to pronounce it..
n its FUCKING COOL!!!
its a symphonic black metal ah...n they aint no ang mo band la..
they chinese la sial...no offence to any chi readers, but im kinda surprise tat there is a chi band who plays symphonic metal..
now tat, CHthonic reli earn my respect la sial...hats off to them...
well, ltr at 3 plus gonna b at gas haus, AGAIN...
this time, its for mannan's gig...they're playing ard 6.30 i think...
so yeap...n gonna meet her there!!
n surprisingly, she called me juz now...
n i thot who only..
ohwell...
ok, im done...
god bless..
Thursday, December 21, 2006
aku mendaaaaaaaak!!!
went to watch BEL jam today...suppose to jam for 2 hours but in e end jammed for only HALF n HR cuz OG ter-over slpt...he came home frm werk at 9 in e mrng siaaa...so understandable..
well, after tat, went to tong seng to mkn then OG went to suntec whereas me and ammar went back to bukit batok...e rest went to espl i think to lepak...yeap...
otw, got to noe ammar deeper ah...we talked n yeap...he's a nice guy eh...
so ANW, HAD MY HAIR CUT!!!
after so long la...decided to cut it since i find it hard to run wif a long hair in my head...
planned to haf it shaved by e sides n haf my hair short n standing in e middle...
but didnt haf e heart to cut it all off....so i juz told e uncle to keep e style, but juz shorten e length...
turned out okla...
but im sure when my frens see me, they'd go, OMG!!! WAT U DO TO UR HAIR???
confirm nye...
haha..
besoooook....gonna go bbss n try to look for industrial attachment there...malas ah nak gi planet fitness...leceh ah..
haha....then after tat, gonna go prayers followed by christmascore gig...e LAST show...
hope its gonna end wif a bang ah...
brrrr..
SIAN AH!
thats why i update so fast...
wakakakkaa!!!
ok, im done here...
god bless...
hey everyone...
before i get lazy to update, guess i better update now...
haha..
well, e chalet was one hell of a chalet la...fyi..im toking abt e class chalet...
SM gile la siaaaaal....we kinda made alot of noise thou...n i feel sorry for e neighbouring ppl who were at e chalet ard our area...we used mic n speaker la sial...
aha...adam n justin were up 1st n adam said something tat was entirely out of e blue...
he said I LOVE U to esna la SIALLLL....
hahaha...bet esna was like *DROOLS/MELTING*...esna, if ur reading this, c'monnnnn....
dun lieeee....i bet u DID drool or melt when adam said tat...
haha...then, had a so called "who's line is it anw?" hosted by hayat n kak iza...
then, was my turn...was kinda sucky but wth...juz do it n get it over n done wif...sorry if it sucks...
ANW, there were two dance performance...one was e hip hop/ melayu dance n the other was more to hindu dance...
DUA DUA POWER LA SIAAAAL...as in both e dance performance was HOT...
haha...yeap...even e makcik next door followed to dance along...
haha...well, e thing tat reli out of e blue was e part where indera took e mic n apologised to everyone if he ever did any wrong to anyone...was kinda touched by tat action...but i dun think majority was listening to wat he had to say...in any case, i salute u indera for having e balls to do tat...(eventhou i duno wat wrong u did..) haha...
after everything was over, we went into e chalet...some left whereas some continued eating...
i took a look at them n juz smiled for a while...i felt reli like a part of a big fucking family...n im honoured to b in it...everyone was getting along wif each other for once...
hate to admit it but tat happy moment wud only last tat nite...
once back to sch, all kinds of gossips wud go ard...its a shame, but tat happens every time i guess...
i'd say this one...n i wun say it again
I LOVE PB...pretend u didnt hear tat...
hahaha...
IN ANY CASE!!! i miss ERIS!!!
ergh!!! nxt gig wud b nxt yr sak...
LAMA LA SIAAAAL....ohwell...nvm....
i miss e bangla man, zadman, shaz gay n tat rasoool...
haha...i sound gay sia tonite...
ok, im done here...
god bless
Monday, December 18, 2006
im so f*cking bored rite now...
wanted to go out, but ended up sleeping instead since its raining...
i soooo need to get a life man...SHEESH!!!
well, had a gig er..last fri i think...
was e 4th band n was kinda interesting ah...kinda boring ah...wasnt much goin on in tat gig but we played still cuz we need to play more shows in order to get known la i guess...
well, im so bored now...im having a headache n fucking bored...
well, thats e pic taken on e 15th by tat faggot ryan...haha...shaz act shy only...but he's not...
anw, tmr gonna haf my class chalet...looking forwerd to tmr n wednesday...
haha...then on fri got gig..e last part of christmascore...haha...heard its gonna b fun..so i must b there since i got e tix...
haha...
okla,
im done...
god bless
Wednesday, December 13, 2006
the damage is done..
e split is obvious..
jealousy has taken over...
all bonds of friendship has ended...
ever since e KL trip happened, there's been a split
i admit...there was some jealousy within me...
but i learn to accept it..
some still hang onto that jealousy..
i mean c'mon la..ur jealous over ur fren who are fortunate enuf to be selected??
doesnt make sense to me...find it stupid la they...
rather than being happy, ur jealous...
think abt it..u know who u are
almost everyone was at forum on monday...
preparing for bcm role play...i was in e centre..
on e left, was those who went for e trip...
on e right, were those who didnt get selected for e trip...
n they weren't like a few seats away...it was like a 10m distance??
i think so ah...
kept thinking of it...ohwell..was bound to happen la i guess...
juz hope tat they camp wif e seniors early nxt yr wud reli bond us together like before...
i heard someone saying tat, "the camp wif e seniors nxt yr, has two possibilities...it will either bond us, or break us..."
im scared of e break up n ppl toking abt each other behind their own classmate's back...
kinda sucky...n reli sad tat this is happening to a class tat was thot to b e greatest class in SM..
played handball on monday...all of us together...playing, having fun...
tat was e class tat i learn to noe n love...a class tat i respect in each n every manner possible...
hope god wud bless this class...
ANW, i think im gonna get this gal's number tmr...
she literally make my heart beat fast...
i dunno...try aje lor...haha...
n adam stil can say tat she got a sweet smile...
haha...n i didnt even tell him THATS e gerl la..
i think he reads minds..
ohwell...
BTW!!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR GAY BASSIST!!!
da 17 tahun...da tuaaaa...wakakaka...
see u on friday!!!
ok done...
god bless...
Sunday, December 10, 2006
i thot she was juz another crush...
eventhou we've nvr met, i do think of her occasionally...
i admit, i've got alot of crushes n u guys wud be like, "AZHAR!! how many u want sia?!?!"
but juz now, at e gig, i saw who i wanted...we didnt tok much...but wheneva i wanted to say something, i'd think twice cuz im juz scared tat i'll say e wrong thing...
i was excited to see her juz now...
n for e 1st time, i seriously, honestly, truely felt comfortable...
i admit, e 1st few werds tat i said to her didnt mean much...i stutter to say wat i wanted to say...
furthermore, honestly, she doesnt look hot, she's not a babe...
something abt her reli makes me feel tat she's beautiful..one of a kind...
at one point, she said she was looking for her bf...i thot she was juz saying tat to find her guy fren
BUT, as it turns out, she does haf a bf...i was crushed like fucking hell...no werds cud describe e feeling...i know, its juz e 1st meeting and all...
but at tat moment, everthing was different...i didnt even look at those scene gerls who r much prettier than her...something's wrong wif me...
i noe it...i can feel it...
pardon me if i act differently in class this week my fellow PeeBians...my apologies...
i juz hafta grab a hold of myself n settle down...
i hate this...
i fucking hate being only able to haf crushes man...
yes, i admit, im kinda despo...
but one thing's for sure...
i hafta grab a hold of myself n juz dun care abt all this stuff...
no girl, doesnt mean no life, rite?
i've still got my music, my PeeBians, my band, my religion n my family...
tats all i nid for me to survive...bein attached is juz a bonus point for me...
but then again, SHE really made me feel complete...
BUT, she's attached...fuck irony...
ok, im done...
god fucking bless us all....
Wednesday, December 06, 2006
omg!!!
i got a bdm shirt for my gift!!!
omfg!!!
got it frm fatin n esna... thanks ah korg...at 1st, i honestly thot it was juz some shirt frm IMAGE la...then after esna went off for WFA class, was left me, hayat n fatin...then i took a look at e shirt again...THEN, in my heart, i was like, "ni mcm ku kenal je design..." n true enuf, it was black dahlia murder's shirt!!! wakau!!! mcm tahu je aku nak beli baju frm there....hahaha....
thanks ah sisters(fatin n esna)!!! i was kinda touched since tat was my 1st present ever since i was young(ever since i can remember la) eventhou i dun like getting presents on my b'dae...but this, i shall make an exception since its BDM!!! wakakakakkaa!!!
so anw, my day was fine...ended sch early...ard 2 kelas da habis n tmr im gonna do my FOF practical wif hayat...im so dead...
ohwell, i shall now TRY to study...
n remember, TRY only ah...no promise tat i wil study...
ok done
god bless
Monday, December 04, 2006
hello ppl..fucking exhausted frm ytd's gig..was alrite la...i had been kicked at my balls, elbowed on my head n slammed on my back...in e end, was all worth it...there was good n bad "things" tat happened ytd...GOOD: e gig was fucking awesome n eris played xtremely well...BAD: went home wif sore neck, sore calf, sore back...headache...yup2...tats all...ANW, tat was relil a big break for eris i honestly think...n before i forget, i wanna mention tat i reli REALLY appreciate those who came down for e gig n supported Every Rage I Seek...ath, faezah,sheeka n 3 to 4 of their frens(sorry, but i dunno their names) adi n fren frm Break Down In Equation, iza, aishah frm bbss, noraina, justin n fren, mannan, Din n fren, esna, fatin and all thoe who came down for our gig...THANKS FOR UR SUPPORT!!! WE WUDNT HAF BRING E HOUSE DOWN WITHOUT THOSE GUYS WHO MOSHED TO OUR PERFORMANCE...again, THANKS!!! n oso thanks to alex, auji n damien, eventhou they missed out our performance....well, now in sch ah...having etp...sian ah!!!haha....knn!!! penat sak!!! thinking to go home after sch ah...takot mak bising ah...been goin home late recently...so kinda wanna go home early n rehat la...n play wif my annoying niece n lil sis...wanna bully them ltr before they bully me!!!wakakakakaka!!!ok, im done here...god bless...
Saturday, December 02, 2006
hey ppl...
exhausted frm ytd's gig at gas haus...nobody was standing up while we perform, well at least for some of e songs members of FBE did la...da la 1st time performing, KENE 1ST BAND PULAK TU!!! so ya...anw, kinda expected tat no one support us since we're still young n new in this kinda stuff..had a blast la ytd...moshed like crazy...e biggest mosh was during FBE's last song...damn! tat was like e fucking biggest mosh la!!! didnt dare to enter e mosh again when i was thrown out of it..seram siol!!! haha...then damien ended their performance by throwing his guitar soooo high tat it almost hit my HEAD!!! but lucky dat basket damien caught his guitar...haha
was sooo nervous tat i literally rather than terkencing, aku terBERAK at gas haus...well, didnt shit in my pants la but went to e toilet there...rather weird la using without sabun...ohwell...
tmr got another gig...10th band sak kene to perform!!! klu start at 2, takpe...klu start ard 4, MAMPOS SAK!!!
balik confirm lambatnye...anw, during our performance, sheeka did took some shots ah...
thanks gerl...i'd post e pics up as soon as i get e pics....
ANW, gonna meet faridah later...one of liyana's fren...meeting for e 1st time n im kinda anxious abt it...ohwell...KING NONOK BEBEH!!!
haha
btw, skg tgh taking care of my lil sis...NOW, she's using my headphones to listen to wake up! by NOFX i think...haha..n she's headbanging to it...
imagine, a 2 yr old headbanging...wat is this world coming to...
haha...
kk..
DONE!!!
take care...
god bless
