one hella of a night
first, lost one side of my chapal..
i was pissed cuz i couldnt figure out why the hell would anyone steal only one side of a pair of chapal or shoes?!
wtf!!!
ah well..
second, being interrogated..
it was my first time..
i was so excited!
even before the questions were shot at me, i was already gathering my answers and waiting to just say it out once the question was asked...
but on a serious note...
that interrogation session made me realise something...
yes, her intentions were to protect her sister from any bad company
i understand
i mean hey, i got my hippo kid bro and a younger sis as well...
i'd do anything to protect them too..
but before u can protect them, you need to know what kind of threats that they would have to face..get what i mean?
u need to knw ur enemy first, before u cud come up with a plan to destroy your enemy...correct?
rather than tt, u also need to know who's ur ally...
in a war, a country cant be ignorant enough to think that they're strong enough to face an enemy more than one nation...
well, that concept could be applied in this case...
she's being too overprotective...
to the point where she's actually striking fear into her sister's heart..
(P.S.some might know what im talking abt so, if u do, just shut up)
as i was leaving, i looked at her..
she didnt say anything but i could see it in her face; her eyes..
that she was a troubled young lady..
with the lost of a loved one, a broken heart could never be mended..
"time heals all wounds"
but does tt apply to this scenario?
only God knows..
its a shame really..
but my main point would be..
people who comes out from such griefs tend to be stronger than before...
both physically and mentally...
but the time for them to be as such would take a long time..
only patience could really tell..
one more point to add would be..
do not only think of protecting the person herself...
of what she might do and also of what she might become...
but you should also protect the relationship that you have with her..
without having a close relationship, then why the hell are you protecting her in the first place?
i could sense that she's not treating her as a sister...
but more to someone that she would protect at all cost..
and in this case, the relationship between them..
a price to pay for protections...
dayyymnnn...tireeeeedd...
ok, im done..
god bless...
seems weird to me..
but i think i just came up with a hypothesis on why there's always conflict in this world
in total, there's about 6 billion people on this planet, and the population is growing..
at the same time, the world's resources is depleting, fast..
there's even a myth that i heard about a few months back..
it goes something like within 50 - 70 years, the world's oil would be depleted..
now that explains why the oil prices around the world has gone up..
which leads to the wars being waged in iraq and some other arabic nations..
everyone knows that the arabic lands are rich with oil..
and with this, which ever countries controls that resource, indirectly controls the world..
i do not wish to make any accusations here...
but that just make alot of sense to me..
oil = important human resource
decrease in supply of oil = increase in prices
increase in prices = country which owns the oil being rich
thats how i see it..
i dont know about you
but it makes alot of sense to me
back to the topic..
it seems to also make sense to me that with conflicts, lives would be lost...
ok, how do i explain this..
erm..
let me try this...
increase in human population = increase in demand for resources
correct?
but now, the picture is that the world resources is decreasing rapidly..
with that,
decrease in human population = decrease in demand for resources
correct?
with that,
conflicts/wars = human lives lost in the thousands = decrease in human population = decrease in demand for resources...
even natural disasters plays a part in decreasing the human population..
example, the tsunami that hit in dec 2006, i think..
thousands of human lives were lost..
its basically about balancing the need of human resources and also the resources that is already available on our old mother earth..
she's getting older and weaker..
"Every creation carries with it its own seed of destruction.."
earth will eventually "die" as well..
but no one knows when..
i think that there is some "force" in the world thats responsible for balancing the equation..
by balancing it, there wont be too many people on earth and hence the resources that is left on earth would be able to meet up with the demand of humans...
make sense?
ergh..
it seems hard for me to put it in words now..
i hope you'd be able to understand my hypothesis..
this is the problem when you think too much.
fucker.
ok, im done...
god bless...
Thursday, October 09, 2008
these past few months
i have been bombarded with temptations
one after another
at times, my desires got the best of me
if not for discipline
i would have long gone astray
but these past few months
this discipline that i have is running an all time low
reasons for such occurances
i do not know
but what i do know is
i need to find something/someone that could make me believe in myself again
be more decisive
be more discipline
i always believe that with self discipline
you can achieve anything
and i do mean anything
its just up to the individual to either have the discipline to achieve it or not
but whatever it is
i need to be inspired again
the emotions that's in me
its really disturbing
and i really need to get rid of it; fast..
i do not wish anything stupid to happen to me or anyone around me just because i failed to control myself
why-oh-why are these temptations so strong?
i feel so weak
but all i can say is that im holding onto the ropes
hanging with only whatever strength that is left in me to avoid such "wrong actions"
god dammit!
i just need a tag team partner in crime to overcome the obstacle that i am facing right now
ok, im done..
god bless...
