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Wednesday, August 29, 2007

who am i kidding???
too late already now
in any case, it doesnt matter, does it?
it doesnt make any difference anyway, rite?
fuck mannn
well, im gonna get over it soon
mofo mofo mofo
slowly, but surely
i wun be caring much of their kind anymore soon...
oh god help me...

in any case, im SO into HIMSA rite nowww
WOOHOO!
GO HIMSAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

ok, im done
god bless...

ASS-har :: 12:33 AM

Tuesday, August 21, 2007

was going thru music videos just now
and i cant stop to notice on how people critisize bands that are on tt website
its kinda sad to see such a thing exist
i mean, ppl talk abt how they're "open" to all kinda music
they TRIED to make themselves look like a true fan of music
but whats up wif critisizing bands ??
if u dun like the music, then dun listen to it
its not ur cup of tea
so go ahead and find something tt u fine nice to ur motherfucking ears pls and stop critisizing em
they put all the hard work in their music to be appreciated
NOT to be mocked at
and if u know how to do better than them, den get urself a band
MAKE MUSIC

ok, im done
god bless.

ASS-har :: 1:29 AM

Monday, August 20, 2007

and before i forget
its 254am in e mrng of monday

another impt thing that i should highlight is that
people this days, no matter what age you are
tend to use the word LOVE alot
making it the most OVERATED word ever
i dun use this term TOO often
but i do know this
only those mature enough to know what it actually means, meant it when they say it to someone they truly love
when u say "love" to someone
i think that person is an impt person in one's life
you should be ready to do anything for that person in order for him/her to be safe
its not a WORD to be used by kids these days when they're attached for just a week
"LOVE" should be something sacred
something that comes from ur fucking fucked up heart
before you ever say that word, THINK
is he or she worth ur love in the 1st place?

for couples
is he worth ur love after he had beaten u like a dog and show no mercy??
is she worth ur love when she kept ignoring you for a mth??
think ladies and gentlemen
THINK
think before u ever say this word
dun just use the term to get something in return
or just for the sake of saying it
if ur partner says it to u 1st
look at him
in his/her MATA(eyes)
he/she should be looking at u when he/she says it
then, u think, "is he/she for real? OR just wants something in return?"
dun say "i love u" just becuz someone said to u 1st
be patient
take ur time to think abt it
there's no hurry (unless ur dying)

in the 1st place, LOVE should be used more often at home
love among family members are far more impt than any other, agree?
ur family members take care of u
bathed u, fed u, shared ur problems wit
haf always been there for u
now THATS one example of what love is all about
not a cliche used by u motherfuckers to get laid or what not
u stupid dumbfucks gives the word a disgrace
in any case
its hard to say i love u to ur own family members
love between family members are not bound by words
its bound by ur actions
saying "i love u" to ur mum or even bro wud seem weird
i know
but, by saying that, it'll reassure them tt u'd be there for them as they haf been there for u
it also means tt they an impt figure in ur life
i think i've said more than enough abt LOVE

so my friends
think hard on what love is all about
but then again, i could only say so much
the rest is up to u motherfuckers

ok, im done
god bless...

ASS-har :: 2:53 AM

the society rite now is so fucking annoying to me
too much propaganda goin around
saying whats best for you and whats not best for you
promoters promote things tt they think wud be used by everyone of every kind
but they dun touch and focus on e point tt every one is built different and has their own unique-ness
THAT, they failed to see
instead, they put out flyers(or fliers) saying on how u shud live your life
YOUR life my friends..
but they're turning it around to make it seem ur leading THEIR life
u dun see it cuz they hid it SO well, even einstein wouldnt be able to see it
too much of it is goin around
countless of lives haf been lost due to image concern
most of em, teenagers
im concentrating on e minority of teens
the media is giving this teens a wrong message
they're putting across false information
getting these teens hopes high and at the end of the day, crush it into pieces
they use models to attract these gullible teens into their web
once in the web, if the teen is not strong enough, they'd be addicted to it
thus, money wud be involved
they try and put across to e consumer tt they're interested in making a change in a teen's life
but in actual fact, they dun give a fuck about you
what they care is all about making money
i may not know hhow the working world is really like
but thats my point of view, for now..
anw
at a teenager's age, that age, is the most rebellious point of their life
they'd explore the world
finding new things, most of the time thru frens or by themselves
this is WRONG
some issues such as sex are a sensitive issue when talking about wif family members
but isnt it better to know abt sex thru ur own family members than a stranger?
think about it readers

and to summarise it, i just think that today's mindset is all about looking good and getting the wrong info
dun get me wrong
there are companies that are all about changing ppl's life
but some, they just take advantage of it
tts e sad part
fucktits
models promoting beauty equipment and what not
sometimes, its becuz of the genes
u cant help but want to b like them..
but what i say to u is this

THEY're beautiful OUTSIDE
but how about INSIDE...??
are both the same?

in this world, you cant have the best of two worlds

BE a good person
thats all it takes for u to forget about image and do what is right

im not saying im an angel bitch
im still the same motherfucking azhar who loves to bitch abt u in ur face when im in e mood
and i still think using my own motherfucking brains unlike u assholes

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 12:19 AM

Wednesday, August 15, 2007

its 12am on a thursday mrng
i've got a runny nose

anw, just wanted to say something
these days, it seems to me tt kids at e age of 12 to 15 are already getting wild
now, thats something i myself am afraid of
they(girls) wear clothes so revealling
attracting bad companies

but overall
i'v got no idea as in why they choose such a path
but my best guess is they wish to be "in" and not feel left out
or maybe they haf personal problems, and by doin so, they could forget abt their problems
i dunno
but thats just my opinion

in any case,
kids these days are WAY different than kids back in the days when i was their age
when i was at their age, i was still playing lego for fucking sake
now, they dun play such things, they're more "upgraded"
now, they're into this thing called, "monkey see, monkey do"
n trust me, they dun think..
they just follow
kids nowadays do things that make em proud of themselves for all e wrong reasons
such as trying to prove their self worthiness to their friends..
they drink, smoke and do things that waste their times..

DONT get me wrong readers..
im refering to ALL of those kids...
im refering to those idiotic kids who haf no brains to think for themselves
forever following what ppl say without even thinking of the effects ltr
& when its too late, then they'll regret

advice to kids who are reading this shit,
DONT follow what ur company say
USE some brains for fucking sake
SAY NO when its proper
DONT DRINK
DONT SMOKE
DONT FUCK

trust me, u'd just regret later on in ur life

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 11:59 PM

its 2.16am on a wednesday mrng

feeling angry till u feel like crying
ever felt such a feeling?
well, yea..
thats what i feel now
everything's just messed up
happy days are over
angry/sad days are ahead
god damned i need eris now
i need every lil inch of eris to help me cure of my illness
i need to curse
i need to scream
i need to fight
i need to be hit so that i can get back to my senses
for now, i've gotta be patiant
two more days
TWO MORE DAYS AZHAR

what annoys me now?
friendship mostly
and how it can get affected if something wrong happens
i know u'd say something like, "hey, cmon, i wont do this to you.."
my say to that?
thats crap
humans are known to contradict what they say or believe
so what makes u any different?
but then again, there no doubt in my mind that there are such ppl in these world
those who kept with thier promises

and then, there's some friends who dun understand the word NO...
for that group, i seriously dun get u
dun u understand what im saying to u?
a NO means a NO
get it thru ur motherfucking thick head of urs
whats this or forcing someone into something they're not interested in
what a fuck
get a life laaaa
rather than disturbing me with such nonsense
wtf

rite now, im just plain angry
reason?
i dunno
i just feel like it
but i dun hit anything to release it out
thats what bugs me the most
cuz i only know one way to release it
thru jamming
i cant stress on how much i need eris rite now

ok, im done
god bless...

ASS-har :: 2:13 AM

one after another
its too much
its too much for me to handle
and i know ur having some problems
so pls, open up
we've been together thru thick and thin
u know me, i know u
so cmon
open up
u know i'll help u
u know we'll help u

in any case, im bored
hope everything will turn okay

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 12:41 AM

Monday, August 13, 2007

everything that i love is turning against me
pressure's building up
i cant take it anymore
my only way of letting it out has turned against me
im just afraid that friends would turn against me too
im begining to really be careful with my friends and surroundings
fuck u
fuck u
fuck u
screw u
screw u
screw em all

p.s. SCRAM

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 10:30 PM

Monday, August 06, 2007

music and fashion dont mix

because of u rascals, the very foundation and believe in such music is lost
u use music that i love so much, as a mofo-ing fashion statement to look cool, attractive and what not
but u dun understand a single shit about it
everybody is labelling everyone that they see on the street wearing black and all
u think that makes u look fierce and cool??
in fact, that'll only attract unwanted attention from the people who really appriciate what music is all about

we dont use music that we love to our advantage to look cool or look good
music that i love so much should be used to make u realise about our surroundings, the question of what's there after death, the love between bloodlines, anger, hate, innocent lives being killed for human greed, brothers slaughtering brothers in the name of their god. the music that i love never promote on how to look good, or how to get laid with a girl in 60 seconds. but u twisted the essence of it into such and THAT makes me very annoyed

i may not know much about the music that i love, but i do know this
i respect the music that i love
i treat it as my life line
i use it for what it is suppose to be used for - relieving stress
and im addicted to it

i could be a layman
i could be sxe
i could be a punk
i could be a skinhead
i could be hxc
i could be a metalhead
whatever i am
it doesnt matter
but what matters is,
music should be use for self discipline, control of one's self, awareness of your surroundings and love between ur families

ok, thats that

on another note
CB LA!
I GOT MOFO DIAHORREA!!! (if thats how its spelt)
ergh!
want to shit SIAL!

ok, im done
god bless
but what matters is, whatever scene ur in, there's always music

ASS-har :: 8:47 AM

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