hello dickheads...
its 1.07am in e mrng on a lousy thursday mrng!!!
im bored..
random thots are goin thru my head now..
i dun find it fair when ur standing on a much higher level than i am
i find it annoying cuz u keep saying that ur life sucks n that ur parents dun love u for e truth is, u dont even noe wats e meaning of life sucks..literally..
i feel like slapping those ppl who keep bragging abt their achievements juz to make em shut up
i feel helpless when living things are slaughtered, murdered and even torture just to give pleasure to some motherfucking dickhead/bitch wif a retarded brain
i feel sad whenever i see love in e air
i feel touched when i see old couples still holding strong to each other's love
i feel numb when ppl try to care abt me
i've lost all hope in regaining my confidence..
i feel proud when im working out...(sometimes)
i feel useless when im unable to literally do something for someone or something
i dun give a shit abt politics cuz wateva it is, it seems to me the bad guys always wins
i feel that i need to jam every time i get angry or sad...
i feel that ppl who are suffering deserve more welfare than i do
i find it ashame when beautiful ppl do stupid things
i am ashame of myself sometimes...
i feel that whenever i say something, they'll juz retaliate with something better...
i find it rude to juz hang up without a gud bye when using e phone
i feel that i dun deserve those ppl ard me cuz they're juz too nice n too caring for me
i find myself hating myself each time i feel useless to help anyone...
i find myself being more emo abt nth this days...dammit
i miss ilah
i miss ERIS
i miss the idiotic ass-es frm PB
i miss being somebody's listening ear
i miss being somebody's pillar of hope
i miss being independant
i miss nsq
i miss my niece
i miss my lil sister
i miss being respected
i miss my sec sch life
im scared to lose my family
im scared to lose my siblings
im scared to lose my granny
im scared of ERIS breaking up
im scared of clowns
im scared of baby dolls
im scared of the unknown
im scared of death
im scared of god
im scared of those superior than me
im scared of bein killed
im scared of losing my loved ones...
im scared that my lil sis n niece wud turn out bad when they're older
im scared of losing my mum n dad
ok, thats all in my head today
alot huh?
steady
well...fuck off now
ok im done
god bless...
hello people with ASS-es for faces...
now its 12.09am, tues mrng...
im suppose to be studying for my FOF paper but neh, ltr can do it la...
well, to start things off, went to gigs at gas haus n Lcube yesterday...
Lcube was solid...but e room was small n ppl were moshing shoeless since u hafta take ur shoes off before u can enter e place..
then, accompanied shazni to gas haus to perform with the Kentalans...
again, both bands tt shazni was performing for was e 2nd band to perform..both set was solid...
but the more rabak one was at gas haus...
every band that perform, surely there'd be a huge crowd goin to e front...
not sure abt Lcube thou..but bands at Lcube were all those bands frm e so call "old sch hardcore" bands la...
lol...
so ANW, the Kentalans played covers frm Lamb of God la, Job For Cowboy la..
Waking the Calaver la..
all were solid giler babi babi giler siak...haha
after that, February Comes Today nye set plak punye turn to perform..
SHE's in the BAND!!!
after sooo long nvr see her, it was MENG-cairkan hati when saw her again
ingat aku da lupakan dia, SKALI maseh ade rase lagi untok dia laaa...
hahaha...
ohwell, now she's away on holidays..
so ya...gonna missing her alr!
dammit la...
wateva...
bunch of gays...haha
ok, im done here...
god bless...
hello wello bello assholes...
im in etp class now...
suppose to haf presentation today but no one's here...
so WATEVA la ehhh..
haha...well, let me see...
went cycling wif lana on sat at pasir ris..
on sunday become a "good" boy and stay at home...
HAHA...
oh ya...fri had jamming without ryan tt faggot...lol..
im bored laaaaa...
i dunno wat to do wif my love life...
right now, i dun think i nid anyone...
do i??
aiyaaaa...i miss saying I LOVE U n I MISS U ALOTTTT to someone tt i really care abt...
ohwell...
fuck it i guess...
HAHA...
well, granny seems to be ill...coughing and complaining abt backaches..
fuck...
ok, im done here
god bless...
helo assholes...
err...in mlc now...dunno wat to doooo...
so update laaaaa
errrr...hmmm...
okay, well tmr jamming...YEAY!but without faggot ryan cuz he has some church thingy...so nvm...
its ok...last week jamming was knnccb-ly freakingly awesome laaaaaa...
everyone was in anger mode for their own personal reason...for me, i honestly cant remember...
but yaa...power dok...
well, shazni, midget n aidil wud ba performing as The Kentalan on e 11th at gas haus...
under e genre of
ROJAKCOREEE!!!
baik la siak...
they gonna wear soccer jersey wif slippers and play lamb of god...
haha...solid giler babi siak...
after tt,momok's side band,insisting of mimi, effa, ayu n zana wud oso b performing on tt day...maybe after tt, gonna go to Lcube plak to watch 44, portia, In hatred, fbe n some other legend bands frm spore are gonna perform there...ade 44 beb!!! in hatred lagi!!!
kiwaaak...solid sak! confirm siot!!! somemore,it cost 5 or 6 bucks!!!
werth it la deyyy...
so ANW, personal story now...
i dunno la eh...
everytime i see someone im interested in, my heart juz dun beat as fast as they shud be...
is it possible tt e nxt one is gonna be my last one??
entah la...
aku pon tak tauuuuuu
im down to 10% of hope tt i can find anyone to b wif me...
once im at 0%, tats it i guess...
give up teros...
hahaha...
n yes yes...
i'll upload some fucking pix for ur amusement ppl...
for now...
im bored...
ok, im done here...
god bless..
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