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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

have you ever felt everything wasnt going your way?
even if its such a minor thing, you'd still be angry about it?
ever feel like smashing things into pieces but when you think about it thoroughly, you cant do that because it'll affect your loved ones as well?
ever feel as if you've let someone down and when you try to make up for it, there's just no way that you could?
ever feel as if your just plainly fucked up?
ever feel as if you just wanna beat up anyone that ever comes in your way to make life miserable for you at that moment..

guess what...
im there...
its been awhile since im angsty...
but the factor that stops me from being as such is gone..
its just a fucking beat down motherfuckers...


Fuck you
With all your kind
Ignorance is bliss for all time...
I know my place in this fucking world
i don't deserve you...
For you're too classy for my type...
Rejection, plays apart in my everyday life..
Its normal for me...
and I'm used to it...

i was fucking used to it...
i guess its back to haunt me...


ok, im fucking done...
god fucking bless...

ASS-har :: 5:55 PM

Sunday, July 19, 2009

the pain of being ignored is unbearable.
the pass 24 hours have been heart wrenching.
the wait is killing..

i think, after this, nothing's gonna be the same.

the end of 23/09/2008 is coming to an end..is it?


ok, im done...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 5:45 PM

Wednesday, July 01, 2009

some websites have suggested that MJ had converted to Islam.
others disapprove of this claim and says that such statements were rubbish.
but whatever it is, while taking the bus back home from training, i came across a few of his songs in my mp3. from then, i started to ponder.
call me slow, but almost most of his songs are related to saving the environment, about people suffering..plainly said, about humanity.
you dont find alot of such artist in any part of the world.
and then, i thought about it again.
and this time, i realised something.

well, my hypothesis is,
in Islam, if a muslim were to be challenged alot in life, he would get entry into paradise and lead an easy life after his death..that is of course he does all his duties as a muslim.
well, when you put the pieces together, IF MJ was truly a muslim, then i guess, my earlier hypothesis MIGHT be right..like i say, MIGHT BE RIGHT..
i know im not a perfect muslim, but im just saying my thoughts here..so chill..haha
i mean, look at him..
the tabloids in America accuses him of being a paedophile; sleeping with children whenever the kids went over at Neverland ( is it? haha)
but then again, i dont know.

that's one thing..
another thing would be, (again, im not saying im pious and all but still..)
in reference to Islam's warning about the end of the world, some of the signs is that there will be someone who will proclaim that he is god and he is the one everyone should follow and bla bla bla..something like that..
well, again, while i was on the bus, i was thinking..
maybe those revelations wasnt about someone proclaiming themselves as god but more to, someone proclaiming that they were doing the right thing; when in fact, what they're doing contradicts what the believe in..

ok, this is very hard to explain.

its something like, the terrorist says that they're doing good by eliminating western interest all over the world and that they believe that the westerners are the devils themselves. they'll kill and behead any westerners that they could get their hands on if their demands were not met. and from what i know from the Quran, Islam doesnt allow its followers to kill except when there's a need to. example; wars. in a war, killing another human being is inevitable.
but i guess, they misread what the holy Quran is all about..

on the other hand, the westerners who takes charge of fighting against the terrorist are also using the same tactics as what their enemies do. but for theirs, in my opinion, is more on a larger scale. we've seen reports of alot of innocent people (especially children) being killed in bombing done by these westerners. it really disturbs me when they bomb houses and shooting at innocent people without any remorse. furthermore, they would simply say to the media "oh, we've accidentally bomb someone's house by mistake...sorry.." or "the enemies were hiding in that building..." when in fact, there were kids and innocent people inside the house..

it disgust me
this would be one of the moments why i hate being a human myself.
its just disgusting what a man can do to another man..

another example would be of the hanging of Saddam Hussein..
im not sure if its the real thing, but if it was, then im deeply shocked
i watch the execution with shock..
it was shown that even when he was about to be hanged, the executioners were taunting him still..
i could hear him saying his last prayers before he was hung..
even before he died, taunting was still thrown at him..
and furthermore, i saw news of Shia's going into Masjids and killing the imams of those masjids and parading the dead body of the imams around the streets..

i wouldnt deny the fact that the sunnis did misuse their powers in one way or another when they were in power, but revenge?
i may not be pious but i know deep in my heart that the prophet Muhammad NEVER and i mean NEVER taught his ummah to do revenge killing, beheading of captured foes or even bombing buildings..

i am, deeply disappointed with this type of people who misuses religion or power for their own gains. its just disgusting to even think about it...

ergh...

ok, im done...
god bless..

ASS-har :: 11:30 PM

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