its saturday morning
and im grouchy and pissed
i was just abt to concentrate and lead a life without any girls, one came along and sat on my mind
well, technically, its not her fault
but her charming ways and maybe a lil bit of her bimbotic side attracted my attention

fuck laaaa
i thought i was over and done with this kinda thing
but now, a chance has opened up for me..
there's a slight chance tt i will win her heart..
but the odds of tt happening is a million to one

we need two hands to clap..
salah2, aku sorg perasaan jubo
kwang3
buang steam jek..

but for now, as i ponder on this issue, i shall keep myself busy during the weekdays with trainings after training to further improve my knowledge on different ways on staying fit and standing up for yourself.

i want to gain confidence from it
i want to gain something that will make me a better person
i want to stand up for myself
no more of getting shits from other people
now its my turn to make my stand

as i close my eyes to fall asleep
i ponder why im build like this
is it a curse?
or a gift; to help others that are in greater depression than me?

whatever it is, over time, i hope to see a new me by the end of the year..
insyallah, with the help of God if He allows me to be such a person tt is..

ok, im done..
god bless..