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Monday, January 29, 2007

ok.. i've realised that im now stuck wif 2 chances...one, juz broke off; whereas the other, juz got to know her recently..
wat to do???
i oso dunno...
half of me says to go ahead and decide on which one whereas the other says, to be patient and see wats in store in future....
mane la tauuuu....some hotter babe wif character comes along...lol
we'll see...

ANW, besok JAMMING!!!
YEAY!!! and also, eris has a slot this coming sunday...
i hope we cud use that as a warm up gig to the main event...
ok, thats it...

ok done..
god bless....

ASS-har :: 8:16 PM

helo helo helo ppl...
been quite a while since i update...
now in etp class n guess what?? NOBODY'S HERE!!!
da agak punye...lol

so ANW, yesterday was ABM, For Marrionatte and Shattered Skies gig...
dammit la...gerek siol...but before that, there was 2 particular bands i'd like to highlight..
1st was this 3 piece band called Rage for Freedom...i think la..
haha...all their songs were in malay la...they play 2 originals which meant FREEDOM, then played kurt angle's song, "YOU SUCK!", n finally two XPDC songs, Suzanna and Di Tepi Pantai...
LOL...i hope i got the song line up rite...chaotic la siaaa...everbody was dancing old sch style wif the twist and all...haha...nxt was this awesome 5 piece band tat i cant remember their name...they played Rock you Like a Hurricane by Scorpion, The Trooper by Iron Maiden, Megadeth song called Psycho(i think) n got somemore ah which i cant remember...their lead guitarist is a god i tell yaaaa....

ANW, then came For Marrionatte's set...before they even started, the floor was already packed!! was wandering where the hell did all this guys came from!!!
the mosh was like HELL...tak berani sak mau mosh...but HEY!!! im a peaceful guy, remember??
HAHA...ya...then came ABM...this wan oso another crazy ass band...i was soooo exhausted that i ended up standing out of the pit for abt 2 songs!
lol...after that, was Shattered Skies...honestly speaking, they were awesome la..
but regretfully, no one was interested in their songs...but nvm that, guys frm Shattered Skies, u guys did well...n in time, u guys wud be great...
wat else eh??
err...went off frm there at abt 9 i think...ya..
reach home abt 10...kepala da pening, leher da sakit, bau da masam...lol...
shiok la sia mase mandi!!! FOOOO...
then rested n called her before goin to bed just to find out how she was..

yup2...thats all folks...

p.s. MANE SAK SEMUA BUDAK P3!!!??? im like alone sak in class now n its already 8.45!!!

ok done...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 8:35 AM

Monday, January 22, 2007

didnt know how it started...
she was as herself; annoying as ever...but this time, without warning, i juz scream at her n wasnt able to control my feelings...
after the noises polluting my ears, seems that its their turn to annoy me...
he really called me at the wrong timing and i might haf threw my anger out on him...
sorry dude...didnt mean to...like i say, wrong timing...
im on the verge of juz blowing up...
n i got the feeling tmr's jamming session is gonna be fucked up...
well, honestly guys, at this moment of time, i dun give a fuck...
if it fucks up, fucks up lor...i dun care for now...
im juz mad like hell...i nid to be alone...
i nid to cool myself down...
im not myself lately...
even my classmates says the same thing...
they told me im too "happy" this days...
a bad thing?
a good thing?
entah la..i oso dunno...
wateva it is...
for the time being, im really fucked up..
so leave me be pls..
thanks


ok, im done here
god bless...

ASS-har :: 9:13 PM

Friday, January 19, 2007

its been a long time since i felt abt anyone this way
my heart pumps fast whenever she called or sms-ed
now, she's having probs wif her bf n i guess, juz stay by her is e best way
if things werk out, gud for her...
if they dun, then i dunno...
her laugh, they way she talked, the way she smiled...
everything abt her makes me weak...
i miss her more often these days...
i pray to god that i dun haf this feelings anymore cuz she juz wants to be frens...
in tat case, i hafta respect her decision...
n anw, she's attached..its juz plain wrong to take her away frm someone..
but to think of it, wud tat be the greatest decision tat i will make?
i dunno...
right now, e possibility of loving her is there cuz i cant slp, eat, stoning without thinking of her...
been a longgggg time since i felt this way...seriously...
oh god help me...

tmr got SM camp laaa..leceh ah...
ilah's gonna go off on saturday morning ard 5 i think...
i pray for her safety during her journey to australia...
hope to see her in 2 yrs time...

well, jamming was great juz now...

ok, im done here...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 1:11 AM

Monday, January 15, 2007

BABI KO SHAZRIL!!! aku da type penat2, ko pegi OFF switch..
kepala gondol betol!!!
MATREPP!!! haha...

okok...enuf abt shaz....
Akmal asked me to session for jossette for the 14th jan gig at gas haus since one of their vox, sidiq, wasnt able to make it...but lucky for me, jossette has 2 vox....one is sidiq n the other is mus, sidiq's GF!! haha...cool rite?? a couple in a band..fucking swit siolll...
ANW, akmal asked me to do tat favor a week ago...n how the hell am i suppose to say no??
kwn sak...so, ya la...help a fren today, a fren wud help tmr...u noe?? so ya...
in hatred perform as the 3rd band whereas jossette was the 5th band...
in hatred was awesome la siaaa...mosh giler babi nye...kepala mcm mau pecah la siaa...haha
their guitarist were all awesome laaa...how i wish i was in In Hatred and Gifted...HAIZZZ...u wish la u fag...lol
ANW, the best news was tat sidiq was able to make it last min!!! yahooo!!! but i still gotta perform for jossette for fixation of a darkness by kse and I am ghost's pretty people never lie...
after tat, e rest of the songs were performed by sidiq...he's not bad la siaaa...
lol...both crowds for In Hatred and Jossette was WOW la...beyond words...moshed like hell...

after jossette's set, all lepak all over gas haus...penat sak...lol..
suppose to go mkn but then dunno la wat happen...then, left me, mimi, fira, ayu, ifa, arfan n his frens, and OG went to beatmerchant for awhile then went to banquet to mkn...
sat down n tok and laughed while eating...it was fun...

went home, accompanied mimi back to bedok since she was kinda upset abt her bf...ya...tat bf of his better take gud care of her la...aiyoooo...
so anw, we chat in e mrt abt the problems she faced wif her bf...
then, we went to bedok bus interchange to take our buses...
so ya la...

IN ANY CASE, i think im in love...yes yes...i know in my past entries ive talked abt this girl la, that girl la...but for this one, i think im falling for her again...
i know its wrong cuz she's attached n im not suppose to haf feelings for her...but its alr there siak...lagi2 she gave me a hug before taking her bus...to her, its juz a frenly gesture...
but for me, inside, i was melting but at e same time sad cuz i cant haf her for my lover..
to me, she's not beautiful but more to pretty and juz any simple gal wif a beautiful soul...
im reli fucked up abt her...ergh...babi ko azhar...lol
ohwell...

i reli hope tat she n her bf wud settle their issues and be back on the road to happiness...
all the best for them...

hmmm...anything else? panjang sak post aku...lol..
da la...tgh sakit perot...
wa mau belah...

ok, im done here...
god bless readers...

ASS-har :: 9:13 AM

Thursday, January 11, 2007

my day went fine
sch was ok
miss ilah la siak...
dammit...she goin off nxt week! n i cant see her off becuz of the stupid camp!
cb
ergh...

dunno wat else to say ah...tmr gonna jam 2 hrs then on saturday gonna jam wif josette since im gonna session for them this sunday...im so dead...god bless josette's set ah on tat day

ok, im done...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 8:35 PM

watched a documenatary ytd abt a boy wif tumor as his face.
at 1st, everthing went well with a total of 1kg of tumor was removed frm his face..
he now has a normal attributes of a child of his age.
unfortunately, he died late 2004...how ironic is that?
doctors say he'll need surgery to reli improve his features when he reaches adulthood.
unfortunately, he wasnt even able to see his 10th birthday....he died while he was aslp...
causes for his death was of high fever and difficulty in breathing...
i cant imagine how sad his family would be because of his death...
it made my eyes watery for the 1st time since a long time...
that documentary about Novemthree really touched me like no other documentary i've ever watched...
the real heartbreaker would be his father....
for a total of 9 weeks(i think), his father sat, laid, took care of Novemthree with tender loving care..
now thats one hell of a father to me...
if anyone should win an award for Father of the yr, he should win it hands down...
being a father is not only about disciplining ur child...but rather, showing him the right way of doin things and also would sacrifice their own life to make their child haf a better life...
like i say, thats one dedicated father if u ask me...

this entry dedicates to the families of Novemthree and his father...
god bless Novemthree's soul and may god bless his family as well
rest in peace novemthree...
my prayers are with u...

okok...i better start doin etp now...
kalau taaaakkk...mampos aku....
k done...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 1:02 AM

watched a documenatary ytd abt a boy wif tumor as his face.
at 1st, everthing went well with a total of 1kg of tumor was removed frm his face..
he now has a normal attributes of a child of his age.
unfortunately, he died late 2004...how ironic is that?
doctors say he'll need surgery to reli improve his features when he reaches adulthood.
unfortunately, he wasnt even able to see his 10th birthday....he died while he was aslp...
causes for his death was of high fever and difficulty in breathing...
i cant imagine how sad his family would be because of his death...
it made my eyes watery for the 1st time since a long time...
that documentary about Novemthree really touched me like no other documentary i've ever watched...
the real heartbreaker would be his father....
for a total of 9 weeks(i think), his father sat, laid, took care of Novemthree with tender loving care..
now thats one hell of a father to me...
if anyone should win an award for Father of the yr, he should win it hands down...
being a father is not only about disciplining ur child...but rather, showing him the right way of doin things and also would sacrifice their own life to make their child haf a better life...
like i say, thats one dedicated father if u ask me...

this entry dedicates to the families of Novemthree and his father...
god bless Novemthree's soul and may god bless his family as well
rest in peace novemthree...
my prayers are with u...

okok...i better start doin etp now...
kalau taaaakkk...mampos aku....
k done...
god bless...

ASS-har :: 1:02 AM

Friday, January 05, 2007

was never meant to be
and i cant help but feel
helpless in this situation
right now, wif e noises polluting my house...
wif e teenage problems i encounter...
i feel like just simply slapping their mouths to make them shut up
i want peace!
AKU NAK SEMUA DIAM
is it tat hard?
fuck
cant wait to b in my 20s...
at least, frm there, i can safely say i dun haf any TEENage problems...
well, gotta wait for nxt yr...
for now, patience haf gotta b my virtue...

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 11:59 PM

Monday, January 01, 2007

morning was okay
woke up at 1 since i slpt at 6 in e mrng
then do some chores
ended up slping again till 9pm
now, watching Little Nick n Lady Boss
funny shows...
msg her juz now...but was out wif a fren of her...
i tried telling...
but she wants to be frens...
ohwell.

ok, im done here...
god bless

ASS-har :: 10:36 PM

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