hey guys...survived this week...hafta stay home today...so maybe go town tml wif joshua juz jln jln...anw, played soccer this mrng at bbss field wif e rest of e faggots...haha...n i refer my sec sch mates as FAGGOTS!!! haha...kidding...missed them la...i communicate wif them better than wif my new mates at ite...well, maybe cuz i noe them for 5 yrs alr...n i mean my sec sch frens la obviously...played for a while n damn, i sux man!!! after 9 mths nvr play soccer on e field, honestly, i suck!!! reli hope i can b on form nxt thursday when we play against last yr's 5n1...i hope my back wud b fine too...hurts like hell....plan not to go gym this week, juz to let my body rest i guess....erks...shit!! thursday got ISS CA3!!!
DDDieeeeeee....!!! erks...lucky only on nutritions...phew!!
OH YA!!! i thot i saw her yesterday!!! was wif shazni n his fren ah, atiqah...they were on their way to espl ah to "study"...lol..i dunno la if they DID study...but anw, yea, after saying bye to them, i turned, n i THINK i saw her wif her fren!!! AHHH!!! wasnt too sure at 1st, so i tried my luck ah...so i shouted her nameeee....wasnt expecting her to turn, but she did!!! AHHH!!!
i froze like a sec then i hurried off...MCM BODOH SAK!!! i cud haf juz wave; but NOOOOOOoooooooo...i decided to juz turn e other way n in e end bang into a guy as i was turning to runaway...how coward is tat?!?! ur such a loser la...HAHA...amazingly, she n her fren was e only ones who turned ard la...soooo....i fuckingly HOPE tat it was her...LOL....
n i oso hope she saw me!!! haiz....ohwell, nvm, there's always a nxt time to meet her...lol...
i HOPE!!! erks....tat wan oso if she still remembers me after she's done wif her O's....
ohwell, time will tell....
anw, jamming ytd was fun...well, at least e starting it was...1st round of e songs were awesome...then as we played e same song over n over n over again, it got boring....n again, my migraine came after jamming...fucking annoying...erks...i wish we're ready for gigs laaaaa....
tak boleh tahan oh!!! been waiting since feb la!!! ergh!!! how fun it wud b to scream infront of everyone...n mosh, n headbang, n n n n ....aiya!! do everything ur suppose to do at gigs lor...
haha..
ok, tats all for now...
miss my old self...haiz...random...
BYE GUYS!!!
take care...
PEACE!!!
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
hey ppl...not feeling good tonite...or rather, lately la..is it becuz i'm tired? or juz simply cudnt b bothered abt stuff anymore...i dunno...it seems tat everything to means nth anymore...ergh!!! no more motivation frm my primary source!! if u get wat i mean...ppl wud call me emo or wateva shit la...but e fact is, when i'm quiet, i juz dun feel like talking...n sometimes, i feel angry, without any reason...i kinda like to juz shut up n not say anything cuz almost most of e time e werds tat i say, r juz simply nth to other ppl if u guys get my drift. i think i'm those kinda person who wud always lose in e war of werds...n when tat happens, i really feel useless...haha...yea, i noe...lame...but, yea...tats how i feel...so tats why i'd rather juz shut my mouth than to tok alot...i used to tok alot i guess but now, new sch, new frens, new atmosphere, i gotta watch wat i say. n oso, b more careful of those who i mix myself wif. well, at least i had a chance to destress myself e other day at agression please gig on last saturday...was fun la...eventhou it felt weird goin to gig alone again, but i had fun...haha...haiz...fri jamming...n my throat feels sore...as if there's phlegm in it...i'm juz afraid i might not b able to scream/sing again if i go to e doctors...soooo scared of e werds, "u can't scream/sing anymore in e future...or else, it'll get worse..." if tat were to ever happen, i'd b sooooooooo sad n b soooooooooooo fcuked up...haha...i bet i'd b some different guy...haha...rubbish toking there...erks..
haiz....reli feel like quitting everything today...quit e Eris, quit touch rugby, quit everything...
EVEN feel like quiting goin after my number one source of motivation, GIRLS!!! hahaha...
ohwell....i dunno...
k la ppl, take care...
hello ppl...1st of all, i think i'm paranoid of gerls la...can nvr understand wat they actually think...maybe men are not meant to noe wat a woman is thinking...haha...yea..tat was wat happen la e other day...i seriously felt no connection wif her...but yet, something drives me to get to know more abt her...n now, i think she's paranoid of me...maybe, i'm e wan who is paranoid...fcuk it la eh....haiz...at 1st, everything went smoothly n i was actually stunned abt how she looked la..knn...terperanjat monyet la sial!!! can't believe it was her la..but too bad, ended e day wif a bad note...my fault, as always...then now, i feel as if she's ignoring me after wat i apologised to her last nite...or maybe she needs time for herself like she always...guys, every heard of gerls say something, but a matter of fact, she's refering to another?? yea, tat is wat i'm thinking she's trying to tell me...but whenever i think of something, e reaction wud contradict wat i think wud happen...make sense??? yeaa....ergh....
enuf of tat...SO ANW, erm...watched ultimata fighter juz now on axn...power la sial!!! make me more enthu abt e plans made by adam n indera to set up a kickboxing club in sch wif mr henson teaching us...but shit la...i heard its gonna b a friday...damn it...i hope it doesnt clash wif my jamming session...yea, so anyhoooo...reli looking forwerd to it when mr henson comes back wif e equipment and all frm thailand after he's done at thailand...i heard he had a fight at thailand, something like tat la...aint too sure abt e details...but yea...this wud relliiiii booost my self esteem la sial!!! but at e same time, i gotta b modest abt...CHEY!!! mcm paham je la sial!!!
haha..ok for now...wanna print something for my PIE module...submission was last week la!!!
haha!!!
ok people...
take care...
Saturday, August 19, 2006
hey ppl...juz got back frm Aggression Please gig at ij studio...and as usual, fcuking hot la e place!! lol...haha...anw, it was fun la!! super crowded sia...didnt expect tat many ppl to b there honestly...actually, i was pretty lazy to go at 1st..but ohwell...once in awhile mah...haha..went alone, again...moshed, headbanged n now feeling e effects of it...sooo sakiiittt....haha...ok, so ANW, tmr gonna see my old my fren, shankara for some teen idol stuff..he took part, n i'm juz there to support, fyi...haha...wud b at jurong point la...been sooooo long since i went there...haiz..but the thing is, its at 8pm la!! ergh!! sian...but nvm, at least i wun b alone, if u get what i mean...if u still dunno, juz pretend to know..haha...phewwww...oh ya!!! cb la!! ytd jamming was sooo fckued up la...i think i mentioned tat alr but nvm, say again..
AHHHHH!!! wanna jam again siaa!! ergh!! anw, think we need new songs la...
ok, tats it for now...comp da start dia nye gile balik..
ok, PEACE!!!
take care ppl
hey ppl...finally e comp in a gud mood..so tats why i used my comp at home...after sooo long...okla, maybe not tat long but it felt super long to me...anw, my day was fucked up la ever since i lost my hp...knn...cb...lol...yeaa...after losing e hp, was sooo looking forwerd to jamming...but in e end, alex tak dtg n we were forced to play 4 piece...lucky shaz came, if not, there'd b drummer, vox n bassist...jam wat fuck sial...that alex some more bukan nak sms ke ape...ergh!!! gasak ah...one after another la...then now my comp buat gile lagi...ergh...
tats all la...sial punye comp...ok bye ppl
Wednesday, August 16, 2006
hey!!! today was e suckiest, most idiotic day i ever had for 2006...1st, had a non-air con bus to go to kallang stadium as part of iss field trip...then somemore u can actually lose weight la when ur in there!!! everyone was in there and it wass fucking humid la sial!!! mcm dalam oven gitu...then hafta stop halfway e jouney cuz hayat seemed to b like in a state where he cud juz pengsan any moment...so we stopped n trevor waved for e other bus which had e 2nd yr students in...so hayat shared tat bus wif them...whereas we continued to suffer..ohwell...guess it helped me burn some fats...haha...righttttt..ANW, i think i might haf dropped my hp there la...da dkt nak sampai kallang stadium then i realise it was missing...punye la panic...almost got into a fight wif saravanan becuz of this...but we're cool...was my fault..sorry dude...anw, told trevor abt it n after e field trip, he send me to a bus stop near e place where we rested for a while to get fresh air earlier..so i went there...but my hp was no where in sight...ohwell...i juz freaking pray tat its in e bus or someone wif a kind heart found it...haiz...anw, i reli do hoped its in e bus n someone found it alr...ergh!!! sooo gonna feel awkward tmr without hp..knn..cb..fuck...nabe cb...err...yea, tats all for e vulgarities..haha...
ANW, now at sis's hse using comp cuz e comp at home da gile...reli feel like punching it..tapi takpe...sabar je la aku...
OH YA!!! chatted wif farah on msn...she seemed down...damn it!! whoever made he down shall die in my hands!!! CHEY!!! haha...mcm btol je...but ya, i wun b human if i dun help her cheer her up...yeap...sounds very cheeky but fuck ur opinion...gonna do it ltr on e phone wif her...
btw, remember ppl, FARAH IS A NICE GERLLLL....so u fuckers better dun haf any wrong ideas aaaaaaahhhh...knn...walap ur ass then u noe...
haha...erm..ok, lil sis wanna go home n drink milk...tats all for now la..
update soon...if i can..
erks..
take care ppl!!!
PEACE!!!
hey ppl...monday tak update cuz comp mcm SIAL!!! k, wat happen eh ytd...
errrrrr......ouh ya!!! went sch,then... went home straight since dad goin back dubai to work...hope he's safe there...erks.. so ANW, since nobody at home but me n grandma, ape lagi, bergantung kat telefon ah kat rumah!!! haha...anw, was pissed la cuz cant use e comp..screen keep on flickering...lol...so guess who i called??? FARAH!!! surprising she was very chatty...its a plus btw..chat frm 11.20 to like...er...1?? ya, she hafta do her sch werk while i hafta go slp...LOL. she seem to b a nice gal n frenly...*YESSS!!!!* ahem...ya, so ANW, like tat lor...lol-ness. ohwell, see what happen...
n btw, i LOVE my younger sis...EVENTHOUGH she's a pain in the ass...LOL...juz hafta say tat la...dari dulu nak adik pompuan, ah ko!! da ade pon adek pompuan satuuuuuuuu...i hope she doesnt turn out like my 2nd sis...*PLZ GOD NO* yup...she n her pinching me all over...kinda season to it alr...haha...ohwell...she's my sis...plan to shape her up into a gud gerl...CHEY...mcm paham je aku...padahal aku sendiri diri tak ter-urus...da la perangai mcm SETAN...aku pikir setan jumpa aku pon he giv up sia...LOL..haha...mcm btol je...
so anw,wat to say eh...
er...hmm....wat sia....oh ya!!! now having ofa lesson(comp lesson fyi)...didnt do my PIE project..haha...sure die laaa...oh well...must show perangai sikit...SIKIT JE..tak banyak..lol...oh ya...chatted wif nura frm SM 2nd yr..thot she'd sound cina...but i was sooooo wroooonngggg...instead, she sounded like any other mly gal...but dun tok much mly la, i guess...
lol...okla, nth else...
take care readers..
PEACE!!!
hey ppl...weekend sucks la...suppose to go out ytd, but in e end didnt...was too lazy to go la...then at 6pm then regretted not goin anw but rot at home...haha..ohwell...but i did went out today...got a brown shirt n medium sized singlet...yeay!! suppose to buy cd la...but none of e cd called out my name!! so didnt buy lor...haha...but i got to noe a band named Catherince...metalcore/hardcore band...e vox reli sounds like it dies today..but e riffs are like as i lay dying's riffs...cool la...but e price oso nice la...30bucks...ergh!!! maybe nxt time ah...
hmm...what else...oh ya!!! saw iqa, AGAIN....that was e 4th time i ran into her la...1st was in e bus when i was on my way to parkway parade, then kat baybeats, then at far east...then juz now kat lucky plaza...too bad i slow la to even say hi...damn i slow..LOL...
went in circles la today...1st to far east, then hmv, then borders, then far east again then finally off to marina square...brrr...reach hm then here i am lor...
haizz....ofa nye project blum habis, PIE nye project blom start n its due on tuesday...
sure dieeeee...
oh ya!! tried to ask farah out but she had other plans...sial ah ko azhar...ur juz slow la dey...
ergh!!!
i'm sooo dead la...gerls here, gerls there...i shud juz DIEEEEEEEEEE.....
aku ni da la low self confidence!! CB!!! NABE!!! FCUK!!! i think nurul's right, i think turning gay is a right choice...NOT!!! NVR!!! TIDAAAAAK!!!!
brrrr...dad's goin back to werk at dubai tmr...mixed reactions actually...part of me will miss him whereas the other, doesnt...pelik dok...well, the nxt time i'd b seeing him is when my 2nd sis gets married..hmmm...tat wud b in..er...nov??? ya...stil got er..3 mths....WOW!!! 4 mths more n HAPPY NEW YR!!! lol...damn la..dunia mau kiamat babe!!!
haha...
ok, tats all for today...
take care ppl...n remember, dun take drugs!!!
PEACE!!!
hey ppl!!! finally jammed today at fourtones...unlucky tat we didnt get e 1st room which was more spacious...ohwell...better than nth i guess...YEAY!!! we were able to play memphis n 11th hr!! not bad la for e 1st time...everything was in place...juz need to polish it up only..so shiok sia when we played sic...eventhou i'm not into slipknot, but nonetheless, reli scream my heart out in tat song...so stress relieving la...anw, in e 1st place, ponteng sch, AGAIN...haha..went to gombak gym frm 9.30 to like, ard 11.15?? ya...got motivation la obviously...there was this lady la..dunno abt her age...but maybe 20-ish la...super power la e figure...after every set, took a glance at her, then continue..HAHA. i noe i sound pervert but its not everyday get to see such sight in e gym la...so must make full use of it mah...if u get what i mean...(WINKS) then after tat, went prayers at ar-raudhah then go mrt to go clarke quay lor...hmm...well, nth else happened really...oh ya!!! juz remembered!! i got shankara's fren(pri sch fren) number!!!yeay!!! saw her 1st when i was on my way to sch...fcuk la!! i think they were in NAFA i think...anw, they were gonna haf sports day at
SENTOSA!!! YES!!
SENTOSA!!! SPORTS DAY!!! fuck laaaa...haha...anw, got to noe frm him tat she was a crazy gal...n i gotta admit, she was kinda cute...LOL. YEAY!!! juz added her on msn..hope she comes online soon...i hope!!
haha...er...tats all for today la..
overall, jamming was GREAT!!!
nxt week,
2 hours of JAMMING!!! NON-STOP!!! YAAAHOOOO!!!
ok, toodles~~~
PEACE!!!
Thursday, August 10, 2006
hey ppl...didnt go sch today...told my mum tat i was lazy to go sch..surprisingly she agreed thou. haha...hmm...went online in e afternoon. talked to her awhile. she was helping her 10yr old bro do project ah...so understandable.. chat for awhile then she hafta log off..better than nth i guess...
haha...my younger sis is getting as annoying as ever..then tat bitch reach home alr, bukan nak jaga dia..ade je dia masih boleh tgk tv...fucking cb bitch asshole...ergh!!! i juz left tat annoying lil gerl there so tat bitch can take care of her. i was tired la plzzzzzzzz.....i ponteng sch to REST not jaga her problem...2 yrs alr my family and i supported her...n yet she's e same...e same old FUCKING sister...fucker..reli respect my mum n dad ah to b able to take all her shit n yet still care for tat bitch. erks.. bukan nak tukar, instead, create more problems...nabe cb..
so ANW, nurul pagi2 buta da msg me saying she's off merayap kat bugis or something...bukan nak belajar tu budak!!! merayaaaaaaap je...besok exam lak tu...gasak ko la nak..LOL
tmr, plan to ponteng again since SW will b cancelled cuz we gotta help out ltr in e evening. PIE having low elements for e 1st few in e register list...then ofa muka aku nak pegi. lol.
so was thinking, maybe go out of hse at 8.30, go gym at ard 9 plus...end gym ard 10 or 11 plus..go ar-raudhah for prayers, then off to clarke quay to jam at fourtones. YAHOO!!!
somehow, i wish to "
bump" into HER whenever we go jamming at fourtones..haha..
i noe, pathetic n its a long shot...but can always dream???
HAHA...really fucking hope tat tmr's jamming session wud b MORE than GOOD!!! but GREAT!!! haha..been looking forwerd since last week...so ya..
thats all for now...
p.s. i stil love tat annoying lil sis of mine..
erks..
take care ppl
PEACE!!!
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
ok back...juz finish toking to nurul on e phone...she sounded different tonite as if she was disturbed by something, or juz plain tired..but she denied being tired...ohwell, i juz might b wrong..so anw, tmr feel like ponteng sch sia...ergh!!! or at least come to sch for ofa n bfd only...hahaha...then after tat, at 3 go gym...then at 5, go touch rugby. hope it'll b fun tmr during training...lol. well, i gotta memorise lyrics for memphis n 11th hour!!
i'll update more tmr...
PEACE n gud nite...
hello ppl...juz got home...went out to espl juz now wif hazirah. surprisingly, she's a nice gerl!! haha...ya, was suppose to follow her till she met her frens at espl to watch firewerk...but in e end, they went to kallang...and guess what, there were no firewerks there!!! e firewerks were at kallang!!! how i wish to see those faces at espl when they waited for hours n yet no firewerks!!! haha!!! oh well..on e phone wif nurul now...post more later...
PEACE!!!
hey ppl...so freaking tired la sial...went to sch early in e mrng, took attendance..then after tat went to e field for some shitty stuff...took abt half an hour...then we went to sports hall to cheer on our class gerls in e final floorball competition..eventhough we lost 2-1, they did good..hmmm...after tat, went to forum to watch some performance...e dance performance wasAWESOME man! e moves r FOOYOOOH!!! pukimek!!! tak bleh angkat la sia...but it was also a gud time to WASH EYE, if u get what i mean...muahhahaha...
then me n some guys n gerls went to play soccer at st wilfrid sports complex...e artificial field there was ok la...but fcuking annoying la cuz the black thing which looks like rock sticks to our body la..ya..other than tat, my form of being a keeper is long gone...lost my touch alr ah..ergh!!!
after tat, met nurul n darshini at boonkeng mrt..darshini seems like a nice gerl...hope she'll take kare of nurul for me...if u ppl get what i mean..ya, then met their fren at cityhall, watch firewerks, then slack ard there til we went home...super crowded la..bein there was fun, but goin back home was miserable since we gotta wait for e ppl to clear 1st before we cud go anywhere...
then got home only, as usual, no peace at all..lil sis wud b screaming la, then my bitch 2nd sis wud like heck kare abt it la...no wander diorg dua dua ekor perangai...ergh!!! sometimes i feel like running away one day, clear my mind, haf some peace for once...
ANW, national day is tmr...happy b'dae s'pore...lol....
erm..wat else...oh ya!!! she hates guys wif
HUGE muscles!!!
damn la...i hope her mine is not her definition of huge...or else, there goes my chance...damn it...hmmm...hope she's doing well now.
i wander wat she's doin now...hmmmm....LOL....
okla ppl...nth juicy la tonite...too fcuking tired daaa....
post again tmr i try...
ok ppl!!!
take care!!!
PEACE!!!
stomachache!!! i think i ate too much chilli juz now for dinner...now its spinning ard my stomach man!!! ergh!!! mcm nak meletop!!! anw, gonna tok abt her again...her new pics are super
HOT... can see only, but cannot have...haha...ohwell...
hmm...OH YA!!! juz remembered wat i wanna say...had a long chat wif nurul last nite...started at ard 11 to 2.30... tok alot of stuff...it seems as if we nvr bore each other...too bad the relationship is over...it would b great if we're able to rekindle those moments we had again...but now its juz a memory..so annoying...like she says, "everything is e same EXCEPT for e status..." which i kinda agree...but then again, miss her hugs, her smile, her wateva mood,her stubborn-ness...everything abt her la...but now, e feeling still lingers...but i gotta move on...cuz it seems that fate doesnt allow us to b together i guess...like u said, we'll see...
ANW, sooo looking forwerd to jamming this fri...da book da tempat...now hoping tat it''ll b great la during e jamming session...hope everything goes well...damn it!! suppose to learn 11th hour n memphis!! tak boleh sabar babe!!! hmmm.....n b4 i forget, one of
My Precious songs, called
Bliss, reminds me of her...as in, e new gerl i mean...haha...dun ask me why, but ya...tat song freaking cool la!!! oh! n haf i said her new pics or hot and cool and....er...hehe...if anybody reads this, i'm sure u haf no idea who i'm toking abt cuz only she wud noe wat i'm tokintg abt....woohoo!! but then again, i dun think i got a chance le...hmm...ohwell..we'll see...
ok ppl, i'm off...my feet rocks cuz e smell is SHIOK!!!
take care my fellow earthlings!
PEACE!!!
Asshar signing OUT!!!
hello ppl!!! 2nd post la sial!!! hha..now having ofa class...SIAN...doin access..wateva its for..HAHA..had some "fight" juz now..was waiting for someone to start SOMETHING la...ada la aku prepare..but honestly, part of me oso didnt wan anything to happen...ohwell...abe mohd nor said something ah...entah ape ntah...then one of e frens(looks ahbeng to me) mcm nak cari gadoh nampak...ohwell...fucktits...so ANW, she's now online!!! AHHH..but too bad la...comp slow abe kene buat ofa lagi...ergh!! anw, helped out mr trevor carry some boxes juz now...frm his office, to e sports hall sia...berpeloh dok!!! bau PENG LA SIAL!!!! but ohwell...bau aku jugak...lol...
can't wait to jam this fri la siaaaaa....when by then, everyone, would haf noe the songs to play!!! YES!!! habis ah!!! ape lagi, HEADBANG AH NANTI!!! oh ya man!!! juz hoping e amps at e studio dun cock up...klu tak, habis laaaaaaaaa....
thats all for now
ltr at nite then continue...maybe la...
PEACE!!!
INTRO
hey ppl...my name's azhar...i'd nvr thot of having my own blog but wtf...at least now ppl can know who i reli am thru here rather than tell em to their faces...
i've got alot of stuff that have been bottled up since i was in sec 4...thot i cud forget abt em...but new things keep on coming and e bottle is getting full by the minute..
so cannot tahan alr...i dislike opening up to frens cuz its kinda hard to noe who to trust n who not to trust...so can b said trust is my primary issue...
haha..ohwell...fucktits...
*END of INTRO*
i'm juz soo fucked up now...i've been goin crazy ever since i broke up...she grew into me, as if she was part of my heart...n now, its kinda haf a hole in it...so, yea...hmm...been trying to look for somebody new but my low self confidence always get in e way...(ckp je badan besar, mintak nombor pompuan pon takot...WHAAAAAT only...) ya, now, at 1st, founded 5 gerls...narrow it to one...but the thing is,
I'VE NVR EVEN MET HER B4 IN MY LIFE!!! now tat's shit la...
maybe cuz she's likes wat i like tat made me attracted to her e most...i hope so...i dunno...
but too bad, she likes some guy frm god-knows-where....brrrr....n i only knew her for like what,2 mths?? die laaaa...azhar, get a life la!!! (in any case, i am trying to find myself a life...HAHAHA)
die laaa..die laaa....but then again, i hope e guy wud like her la...if tat guy doesn't, he's such an ass lor!!! a gerls who plays guitar
ARE FUCKING SEXY LAAAA...nabe!!! fooo!!! tak boleh angkat!!
nak pikul pon tak sampai...lol...
so anw, been given a new title by my class guys...NONOK KING!!! woohoo!!! i'm a king!! but in a bad way obviously...LOL...hope to step down soon frm tat position...HAHA...
ok kewl, i'm done for now...
fuck la...nvr thot i'd haf my own blog...
feel sooooo...ERGH!!!!
take kare ppl!!
asshar OUT!!!
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