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Monday, September 21, 2009

each morning waking up to the same thought..
"Wonder what she's doing today? I bet she's still in bed sleeping...haha.."
each day apart, feels awkward..
so near, yet so far...
either things are getting better, or worse..
but one thing's for sure...
nothing's the same anymore..

i miss the old days laaa...

(sings)
If you come back
In my life
I'll be there till the end of time
(Come back to me, Come back to me, Back into my life)
Oh yeah..
And I swear...
I'll keep you right
By my side...
(lyrics by Blue from the song If You Come Back)

*sniffs*


ok, im done..
god bless...

ASS-har :: 11:37 PM

Tuesday, September 15, 2009

things have been said
after a long struggle, finally both are wounded
for the moment, these flesh wounds are still fresh
hurts like fuck
two options;
either it gets better
or it gets infected and it will never heal

she misses her old self
and if i weren't in the picture, surely i think she would have been back to her old days.
would she?
i dont know.
its just an assumption

now, everything's from bad to worse
like a glass smashed into pieces with no way of sticking it back together
the worse part is, im the one who smash it..
when i try to clean things up, then i realise how important the glass was to me..
but, its too late now
remorse wont do me any good..

i sure hope after everything that have happened for the pass 11 months would make things better..
i really do..

but all i can do now..
is wait..

ASS-har :: 1:43 AM

Saturday, September 05, 2009

have you ever felt stupid about yourself?
ever felt like turning back time and tell the person the truth?
ever hurt the person u care most with your stupid sarcasm?

well, seems like its my turn tonight to do such nonsense..
simply unforgivable..
fuck you azhar..
simply, just fuck you..

im done..
bless you fuckers..

ASS-har :: 2:58 AM

Thursday, September 03, 2009

From this lost, i am to be a better man.
What does that mean?
Is it that after all this time, i havent been a good man?
True, that is.
From your route, will it be effective in tackling the problem?
I hope so. For with this road, we will come to meet with a two way cross road.
One, will lead to a better future for us.
The other, it'll separate us forever.
I abhor taking risk.
I play everything with extra caution thus why, i am not willing to take any risk.
All other possibilities seems to have fade away.
Right now, its surely a lose-lose situation.
I cant see you as the same person as how i did when we first met.
We went too far to go back to that direction again.
But if this is the only way to foster a good forthcoming, then i guess, why fucking not?
We've tried everything else and it was a disaster.
Everything to lose from this if it doesnt turn out as expected.

Oh fuck
Oh fuck
Oh fuck

We'll see.
I hope you're right.
I fucking hope you're right.

ASS-har :: 12:40 PM

Tuesday, September 01, 2009

for fuck, i feel such a loser..

thanks...

ASS-har :: 12:35 AM

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