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Thursday, September 27, 2007

for me personally
when the people call for a new way to be govern or a change in leadership
that means tt the current govt had failed to do its job
when a rally or a peaceful protest is being held
i dun think e govt shud ignore, nor shud they push the issue to the side
they should face the fact tt e people arent happy n shud negotiate in ways tt both side cud serve each other better..

thats never the case in this age and era
the idealogy of a good govt has long been misused and its meaning being twisted
personally, its not the people who serve the govt, but its e govt who serve the people
govt failed to recognise tt the power of the people is more powerful than any army cud ever face
but tts provided tt the people were fighting for a specific cause, together, as one n not different groups

these days, govt are afraid of the unity of the ppl as they're able to topple them down when necessary
hence, some govt controlled e ppl, making them afraid to rise against the govt

thats one of the examples where dictatorship lies
such govt wud nvr call themselves the dictators.
but yet what they do examplifies dictatorship in so many ways..

1st, making the ppl afraid of the govt
2nd, imprisonment of possible opposition of e govt
3rd, use any means necessary to keep themselves in power of e nation

those are e main criteria of dictatorship to me
its ashame to see tt men are willing to do anything to stay in power..

here's a simple thought tt i thot of recently


I am the victim of men's greed
i've lost everything that i need
i've lost my dignity
my family and friends
are no longer with me
they died
doing their duty
im now alone
to live life
as it was once be
lawless brutality
reign down supremacy
blood splattered on walls
children cries are hauled


ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 8:58 PM

Monday, September 24, 2007

i haf done a heavy sin
i will never forgive myself and its a secret tt i wud nvr want to tell anyone in my entire life
i am ashame of myself
i pray to god to forgive me for my sin..
the sins of lust, greed, pride, envy, sloth, gluttony and wrath
i cud never forgive myself
i cud nvr reveal it to anyone
not even a close friend if i were to haf any

ever heard of practise what u preach?
i preach, but i've failed to practise it when e time came
i am ashame of myself
i begged for mercy and forgive to my god n grant me e power to over come this ordeal

i kept wandering to myself, if the oppurtunity comes knocking on my door
wud i be able to resist, or wud i fall into its trap, again?
its very inviting..
it resembles a sweet bait under a huge trap
the bait is soooo inviting
ur willing to fall into its trap
for me, i was only abt to grab e bait when it came across to me
tt its not worth it

yes, i regret for not getting the bait
but hey..
im not trapped in world tt im so against
a world tt a close buddy of mine just left
a world tt wud bring my downfall

oh god help me in my time of need
i haf forsaken u for the past few days
i understand if this is a form of punishment tt u haf bestowed onto me
i understand my lord...

haizzz...
dammit u azhar..u shud haf think thru it twiceeee...

ok, im fucking down
god bless

ASS-har :: 12:08 AM

Saturday, September 22, 2007

its 3.54am of saturday morning.
did something for the 1st time today...
kinda exciting..
adrenaline pumping..
FOOH!
tak bleh angkat siaaaal...

thats all im gonna say

selamat bersahur

ok, im done..
god bless..

ASS-har :: 3:54 AM

Monday, September 10, 2007

when i was 13 to 15 yrs old
i always played lego after sch or during my weekends..
living my childhood days to the fullest as possible
rarely played soccer under void deck
dun haf much friends, other than my classmates
always being and doing what a normal kid at my age would do
now tts having a great childhood
those were my childhood days

BUT these days, kids as young as 10, alr has a bf
not to mention those who just entered secondary sch life
lagi hanyut
i see small lil girls of age ard 14 wearing tube top and tight jeans walking down orchard road hugging or holding their 19 yr old bf
wtf wit tt??
why cant they just be normal??
i wouldnt call tt kinda situation normal cuz they're still young
its a sad sight to see such things are really happening these days
they swing their ass-es as if it was as huge as a watermellon
but in actual fact, its a size of an apple
its even sad when parents cant do anything abt it
letting their child be expose to such trends at such a young age

for e males, cmon!
ur a small fry!
dun act as if the world belong to u!
there's much more to life than trying to be cool, picking up smoking, trying to pick fights
u've got alot more to learn fuckers!
u dun get respect like tt..
these days, its all abt respect among the teens
u dun haf respect for others, and u act like a big fuck,
its e same as if ur digging ur own grave bitch!

think abt it ppl
ur getting attention by using all e wrong ways
showing off ur skin or acting llike an asshole wun get u anywhere
there's much more in life than trying to be seen or heard or even trying to be cool and all

fuck u ppl...

ok, im done..
god bless..

ASS-har :: 2:22 AM

Sunday, September 09, 2007

randomness

things to get:
1) racer bike
2) long distance running shoe
3) running gear (shorts and shirt)
4) new supply of protein
5) MUSIC CDs!!!
6) a new pair of jeans
7) some Tshirts

where e hell am i gonna get e money frm man???
aiyoooooo

anyhuuuus
nxt week puasa

slamat berpuasa!

ok, im done
god bless

ASS-har :: 1:50 AM

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