i just realise something...
i tend to be either angry or sad..
when im sad, its because of me disappointing ppl, losing someone close to me, someone close going off to somewhere far away, failure and when i've lost my confidence
when im angry, its because of rejection, annoyed by someone, when i feel pessimistic and sometimes, i just feel like it
at the moment, im angry..reason? rejection...
i know its one fucking lame reason but wateva
its my life bitches so fuck off...dun tell me what to feel..
part of it also is because im losing my confidence and also bein a pessimist now..
maybe, like a friend once said to me, karma...
the happy days are over and the sad/angry days are in season
so pls do fuck off whenever u see me carrying an lousy face..
i wun say much..
ok, im done..
god bless...
i followed the rules..
i didnt dare to even bend the rules..
i always thought following it would lead me to victory but instead, its the other way round..
it led me to failure instead
i used the people around me as my guide and learn from their mistakes
hoping tt the same thing wudnt happen to me
and now, my hopes are slowly vanishing..
i think abt it every day and night for the past 3 days..
i hope its nothing..
i hope everything would be fine..
its too early to tell now, but yet, my pessimistic(however u spell tt word) side is taking over me..
my confidence is gone in the wind..
blown away by her quiet-ness..
i dont know what to do..
writing my thoughts here would certainly would not do me any good.
i hope the by staying true to one, would really pay off...
oh god help...
ok, im done..
god bless..
after a long and tiring search
i've found it again
i don't know whether if i should just see it nothing...
but it would be ashame if i just let it go..
after a long time, i finally felt the things that i've never felt before for months..
she made me stutter
she made me nervous
she made me think before i act or talk(which usually doesnt happen when im around)
she made me tremble at some point of time
i find ways to make her notice me even more..(ladies, should i be doin this? tolong me plsss)
she's very quiet..
doesnt talk much..
she thinks alot though (i ASSUME laaa..)
but in any case, she's just magnificent, fabulous, fantastic, marvellous...
no word can describe her beauty..
fuck..
ok, im done..
god bless...
